and another...

last friday i received an email from the university - the admission decision letters were mailed out that day. this was my back-up program - my plan B. i didn't tell anyone - only spoke with the ones who were in the same boat. i didn't even tell my beloved. of course, i was a wreck - stressed out and keeping it all to myself. finally, tuesday arrived and my classmates got their letters - one got admitted, the other denied. my letter came today. flat, thin, and very telling. again, they are unfortunately unable to offer me acceptance. so now...on to plan C??

i told myself beforehand that i probably wouldn't get accepted. i mean, c'mon, it's the same admission committee, why would they accept you into one and not the other? but still, the rejection stings. i cried and cried. then i phoned tina fab and asked for words of encouragement. she made me laugh through my tears. again, i am brought back to the realization that plans don't always pan out. it's hard being the control freak that i am to not be affected. will each rejection letter sting like the first? so far it feels like it.